event horizon II

1. so it really comes to this, 4 jobs in 3 years. funny amalgam of feelings: slight waft of sheepishness for having morphed into one of those musical chairs extraordinaires; little dash of deceitful pride for having kept intact my 100% interview-offer record; huge dose of gratitude to the friends to whom i owe almost all of the best things that have happened to me over the past couple of years. the contrast between what i feel now, and what i felt when i first tendered at CS is amazingly stark though, so much so that i surprise even myself - perhaps this has come late by about, 17 months? i remain grateful for all that has transpired, and have no regrets for the decision back in Sep 2007, but let's just say: it's great to finally not have to fight my gut instincts.

2. only by doing what i believe to be wrong can i have a shot at getting the prize, though this necessarily also precludes the possibility of happily ever after - you cannot deny the dark dank humour of this delicious catch-22, my little personal piece of macbeth. dear deus ex machina - now would be a really swell time to appear, thanks in advance.