addendum

ok, so wakeboarding is actually quite fun, even if your self-esteem takes a little hit when you take four times as many tries than other people to get the hang of it. of course, the real question is: since when was mfopd the wakeboarding kind? well, let's just say it vaguely involved minimum quotas, subsidised rates, and of course, The Office Crush. and, ummm menstrual cycles. but, laughably tragic irony aside, nice experience it was, though why normal rates should cost so much is beyond me.

it's embarassing really; started blogging four years ago because of a girl, and now it seems like round two. i realise that the previous post wasn't exactly accurate; i do not, in fact, feel desperate (operative word: yet). the loneliness extends beyond the confines of attached/single status, and can ostensibly be ameliorated by friends. that The Office Crush is having such a overtly huge sway over my present psyche is more due to the impression that it'll take a toto winner's luck to find another one, and the irrepressible belief, however unfounded it may be, that things would have blossomed in another parallel universe where we knew each other earlier. realities suck, but what-ifs kill.

but ok, let this be the last whinefest as far as the OC is concerned. there are other darker issues that i should attend to.